Time to reflect...
sorry to post all at once, been meaning to catch up. It has been quite the last month for us, with our travles, christmas, new years and the passing of my grandfather there has been so much to reflect on. As I sat in church today, trying not to get too caught up in "Whoa is me" mode, I couldn't help but think of all the wonderful blessings my Heavenly Father has bestowed upon me. My life most definilty hasn't ended up the way I imagined and I feel a little lost in the single mom, dating world. I feel I've lost my sense of direction because before this I was a mom and a wife and it was what I love doing most. But I'm grateful everyday for the lessons the Lord teaches me, those that are difficult, those that I feel I can hardly bare and even better those that are down right funny. I do have so much to be thankful for and I want that to be my focus this year.
I have a wonderful family and group of friends that has carried me through this difficult time and I am soooo eternally grateful for them. To listen to me non stop, somtimes the same things. But mostly to laugh with me and share wonderful memories together.
I'm grateful for my beautiful daughter and for the love that she brings into my life. All she knows is unconditional love, and she showers it upon me everyday despite my short comings as a mother.
My Savior....this one is a HUGE one for me especially at this time in my life. He has shown me his incredible mercy and love and has truly carried me through. I know without Him I am nothing, and I am grateful that He atoned for my sins so I can be clean and be with my family and Heaven Father eternally.
Today in Relief Society they played the song "Thankful" by Josh Groban. I have heard this song a million times and never realized what is was about. A beautiful song I will put on my player and post the words here. It touched me.
I am not through the woods yet, I have so much learning and healing to be done but I am grateful for what I do have in this wonderful year.

Somedays we forget
To look around us Somedays we can't see
The joy that surrounds us So caught up inside ourselves
We take when we should give.
So for tonight we pray for What we know can be.
And on this day we hope for What we still can't see.
It's up to us to be the change And even though we all can still do more
There's so much to be thankful for.
Look beyond ourselves There's so much sorrow
It's way too late to sayI'll cry tomorrow
Each of us must find our truth It's so long overdue
So for tonight we pray for What we know can be
And every day we hope for What we still can't see
It's up to us to be the change And even though we all can still do more
There's so much to be thankful for.
Even with our differences There is a place we're all connected '
Each of us can find each other's light
So for tonight we pray for What we know can be
And on this day we hope for What we still can't see
It's up to us to be the change
And even though this world needs so much more
There's so much to be thankful for