wow....

Guess I should update my blog although everyone who visits already knows whats going on I'm sure.
Tuesday I found out I had a very early miscarriage, its technically called a chemical pregnancy. Basically the egg fertilizes but never implants, but my doc said its a miscarriage just like any other. So..its been hard, but I've been so busy I haven't had time to think about it. Last weekend I sort of felt like I was having a nervous breakdown...but I survived. So yesterday I had a test where they inject dye into your uterus and fallopian tubes and as uncomfy as that was everything looked ok. I guess we'l have to see what else is in store.
We had a good Halloween so far, I will post pictures for sure this week. Thanks everyone for your thoughts and prayers and hugs. It means soooo much!!!

Well....

I so far have lost the baby....mark me up for a 4th miscarriage. I woke ups this morning bleeding so I went to the doctor this afternoon and they were unable to find a pregnancy sac so I have either 1 of 2 things....1, the sac has already sluffed off which is unlikely or 2 I have an ectopic pregnancy. A blood test will tell me tomorrow what is going on. I'm pretty numb right now...unsure of how I feel or what to think. I've cried enough for today, I honestly have no more tears to cry.
I can't believe this is happening again.

Suprise Suprise!!!

I'M PREGNANT!!!

I'm keeping this from most people I know in real life but I will announce here although there are 2 people who come here that I know in real life but I'm sure they will be good and keep my secret LOL Its not really a secret per say, but considering my history of miscarraiges I'm not going around announcing it to the world no matter how much I want to!

Its taken more days than I wanted to post this and figure out my estimated due date etc. because I've spent the last 3 days caring for, running around, keeping on top of and feeding 6 children all by myself!!!! I took a new nanny job for a family near here who lives in Alpine. My normal schedule will be wednesday morning to early afternoon and one weekend night but the parents went out of town on buisness for a few days and I was left with 5 kids I barely knew. Needless to say the first day was crazy and by the middle of the day I thought what the heck did I get myself into?? THe school kids get home, they need to do homework, yet none of them will stay on task and have to keep reminding them to do their homwork. THen its off to piano, dance, back to piano, so on and so forth. I have no idea how moms of more than 3 do this!!!!
By Thursday I was pretty on top of things..feeling confident and friday I took them all to chucky cheese! Thats right...me and 6 kids in a public place, of course the older ones could wander around as they pleased but still...I was impressed with myself.
I however will not be having 6 kids, I'm thinking 3 will work for me, maybe 4 we'll just have to see how it all goes.
But for now....we are expecting our second on June 24th, 2007. I have lots of mixed emotions, I'm so happy, confused, unsure, scared etc. I talked to my doctor about a few blood tests he had done with clotting factors and he's decided that I need to be put on a blood thinner, a shot in my stomach twice a day. I'm frightened, and not sure if this is something really needed but I want to do what is best to keep this baby healthy and alive. I need to keep positive so...here's to a happy healthy 9 months!!!

What is the deal???.....


What is the deal with the blogs that have the little decoder thing at the bottom and you have to copy a string of random letters to post a comment. I hope none of my visitors have to do that cause for some reason that drives me nutso! Whats the point, do those bloggers want to be sure their readers are well read and know all the letters of the alphabet and where they at on the keyboard. I've been thinking about this for some time now...and although its a boring blog post there ya go.
Obviously things in my private life aren't that exciting if I'm so consumed about thinking about a secret code you have to enter to post a comment. My husband Tyler was home all last weekend, he had taken both of his jobs (He works as an accountant and then also at sears in the evenings) he'd taken them off for the week cause of his hunting trip. He got a deer, or caught a deer as my mom likes to put it. LOL He came home thursday night and we spent the whole weekend together, saw a movie, visited his parents. It was nice to have him home since he's not home much.
anyhow....my life and thoughts lately are very boring so I'll end this monotinous blog. Sianara.