Time to reflect...
sorry to post all at once, been meaning to catch up. It has been quite the last month for us, with our travles, christmas, new years and the passing of my grandfather there has been so much to reflect on. As I sat in church today, trying not to get too caught up in "Whoa is me" mode, I couldn't help but think of all the wonderful blessings my Heavenly Father has bestowed upon me. My life most definilty hasn't ended up the way I imagined and I feel a little lost in the single mom, dating world. I feel I've lost my sense of direction because before this I was a mom and a wife and it was what I love doing most. But I'm grateful everyday for the lessons the Lord teaches me, those that are difficult, those that I feel I can hardly bare and even better those that are down right funny. I do have so much to be thankful for and I want that to be my focus this year.
I have a wonderful family and group of friends that has carried me through this difficult time and I am soooo eternally grateful for them. To listen to me non stop, somtimes the same things. But mostly to laugh with me and share wonderful memories together.
I'm grateful for my beautiful daughter and for the love that she brings into my life. All she knows is unconditional love, and she showers it upon me everyday despite my short comings as a mother.
My Savior....this one is a HUGE one for me especially at this time in my life. He has shown me his incredible mercy and love and has truly carried me through. I know without Him I am nothing, and I am grateful that He atoned for my sins so I can be clean and be with my family and Heaven Father eternally.
Today in Relief Society they played the song "Thankful" by Josh Groban. I have heard this song a million times and never realized what is was about. A beautiful song I will put on my player and post the words here. It touched me.
I am not through the woods yet, I have so much learning and healing to be done but I am grateful for what I do have in this wonderful year.

Somedays we forget
To look around us Somedays we can't see
The joy that surrounds us So caught up inside ourselves
We take when we should give.
So for tonight we pray for What we know can be.
And on this day we hope for What we still can't see.
It's up to us to be the change And even though we all can still do more
There's so much to be thankful for.
Look beyond ourselves There's so much sorrow
It's way too late to sayI'll cry tomorrow
Each of us must find our truth It's so long overdue
So for tonight we pray for What we know can be
And every day we hope for What we still can't see
It's up to us to be the change And even though we all can still do more
There's so much to be thankful for.
Even with our differences There is a place we're all connected '
Each of us can find each other's light
So for tonight we pray for What we know can be
And on this day we hope for What we still can't see
It's up to us to be the change
And even though this world needs so much more
There's so much to be thankful for

Merry Christmas!!

We had a wonderful Christmas this year. Christmas Eve we spent with my family, doing the nativity, eating food and enjoying eachothers company. Kirsten spent Christmas day with her dad while I went to the Ohlsons(thanks for putting me up for the night was sure fun to see you all christmas morning!). She got lots of great stuff but mostly we are just glad to have spent this special time of year with our friends and family who we love so much! Thank you all for making this Christmas so special.

Christmas nigt spent at Nana's

Opening gifts with grandpa
Spencer helped grandma read the nativity story

Everyone as you can tell took their rolls very seriously during the nativity story

Especially Uncle Kevin!!

Kirsten and Addison were Joseph and Mary, they both are going to be in acting i'm almost certain they were so serious the whole time. Sweet children gotta love em!

Kirsten with her little mermaid cake
Emily gave kirsten a fun hello kitty makeup and hair do set and emily did her hair after. Best friends these girls are!

Grandpa and kirsten cheesin it!

The big 4 year old!

Morgan and Kirsten with Chucky!

This pic sooo describes my daughter! Sassy and fun she is!

Kirsten with the peppermint princess

Tea time with mom

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIRSTEN!

This post is soooo late, what a great mom I am :) We spent the weekend of kirstens birthday in california, had a job interview out there but they treated kirsten like a princess for her birthday. Took her to teddy bear tea at the Four Seasons Hotel in Carlsbad, it was a special tea party for kids at christmas. We had lots of fancy finger foods, hot choclate and she was able to meet the Peppermint Princess! WE also spend some time at Chucky Cheese with a few of our friends we met in california Kirsten and Morgan had a blast!

Headed home quickly sunday morning just in time to to have family over for cake and ice cream. I still can't believe I have a 4 year old. Kirsten is most definitly my bright and shining star. I look at her everyday and thank Heavenly Father for blessing me, despite sometimes she makes me want to pull my hair out. She loves to laugh and be silly, she's always got a "squishy" hug for mom or any of her friends and family. Every night she prayers for her family and cousins, she loves spending time with them and. I am so blessed to have her in my life!

Happy 4th Birthday my baby girl!